It started with a cold and turned into 2 weeks of hacking and coughing. I hate colds. I hate sinus infections and bronchitis. I am so ready to be done with this. For a while I kept my sense of humor and made jokes about my new low sexy voice but no more. I am done! And my poor family sucuumbed so we've been a bunch of sickies around here. Not really up to doing a whole lot. So I have a list of things I want to do. I list of things I have to do. AND a list of things that if I don't do them something will happen. I don't know what for sure but am not going to take the chance. Just kidding. Kind of.
We always feel like our world needs us. Guess it's a grown up version of the self centeredness kids have. They think it's all about them because it's them. Right? We know we're not the center of the universe. The world at large goes round without knowing we're even there. BUT I know I act like MY bit of the world would come crashing down without me. If I don't do this or that thing that I said I would.... oh, no! A bulletin board, some decorations for a school function, I push myself because I think what I do is important. My husband just shakes his head.
But- I do believe what I do is important. I make things beautiful. I make the background of people's every day a little nicer. I remind them that there are wonderful beautiful things in this world created just to make us happy. So although I have to admit that the world will not stop spinning if I take a week or two to recover, I do believe what I do matters to the world. Make sense? It is hard to draw the line though.
I bet you have similar issues. Because you believe that what you do is important you soldier on even when a rest and common sense tells you to take a break. But we drop everything if it has to do with taking care of our kids. We need to remember to make ourselves a priority too. This is of course, me lecturing me. Gonna go pop some ibuprofen and lay down. Be back soon!!!!